I’ve always been a bit of a hoarder. I’m a very sentimental person, so I’ve been a little extreme at times. Ya know that clip from hoarders where the lady finds the old woman laying in a pile of all her old sh**? Yeah that’s actually me… and if you haven’t seen said clip, watch here: believe me you need to see it
Anyway, I’ve been making a lot of changes this summer both physically and mentally. I’ve been working out with my Dad (or at least I’ve been trying to) and I’ve started putting how I truly feel about things before what I think I should be feeling. With that said, the one thing I was struggling with for a while there was moving on from the past (aka why I hoard, it’s all a big circle here). I’m getting over that though. Maybe it’s the fact that I’m graduating from college in four months, or the fact that I’m apartment hunting in Tampa (YIPEE FOR THE PARENTS FINALLY AGREEING– LOVE YOU GUYS!!), but I don’t know, it just hit me.
So, I’ve started cleaning out my childhood bedroom and ridding it of any useless crap that I don’t need to take to Tampa with me. Of course I’m also saving things that I need my parents to hold onto until I have a big house of my own, for when I have babies of my own. Either way, it’s been liberating. Here’s what I’ve gotten rid of so far, incase you need a little push too. Believe me, you should do it, because holding onto the past isn’t helping anyone.
Clothes that I love but are a little bit too tight: Okay it was hard to admit, but I am never getting back down to the size that I was in high school. And I know, styles change, and I probably shouldn’t be wearing exactly what I was four years ago anyway, but some things are definitely still worth having. Unfortunately, my old shorts are a bit snug on the cheeks and my belly is not fitting into those tight tank tops again, so away they went (donated not tossed of course)
Old electronics: For years, I told myself that I should keep all of my old electronics that haven’t been touched in years before that because they were expensive at the time I got them, but what am I really going to do with my iPhone 4 or my digital camera with a half blacked out screen? Of course I turned both on to reminisce on what life was like the last time I used them, but reminiscing is reminiscing for a reason. No need for it in the present.
My old diaries: On the reminiscing note, these I didn’t even open. There is absolutely no need for me to read who I thought was cute in the sixth grade, and who I loved the next day, and who I wanted to marry the day after that. I’m content with where I’m at right now, and those diaries haven’t been moved in years. They shouldn’t move into my hands for reading now.
Random knick knacks I don’t even know why I have: There is NO reason that I need a rock that I found at the park when I was seven, or a penny that I picked up in the mall during that one mall date in middle school. I shouldn’t have even saved some of these things then, so I definitely don’t need them now.
My apparel from when I was a cheerleader: I know this could also probably fall under the clothes blurb, but I guess it’s a little different. My old game day wind breaker still fits, but I will never be wearing it again. I guess it’s time to get rid of my tap shoes too.
Makeup: I don’t wear a lot of makeup now, so somebody please explain to me why I have lime green eyeshadow, and purple lipstick in my room. I kept telling myself I “may need it” for a costume someday, but if that day ever actually comes, I’ll re-buy.
All the gifts from and pictures of me and my exes: oh yeah, I’m talking ex best friends too. Boyfriend wise, I guess it’s hard to let go of someone that you feel defined how you love today, but honestly you have to just bite the bullet. All his old T-shirts were just sitting in a box any way. Get rid of them. And for the ex bff, I definitely sometimes sit around wondering what it would be like if we reconnected. I wonder if I would have someone wonderful to be around, but sometimes bridges are burned and there’s no turning back. SO, get rid off all that too.
The things that feel like you’re throwing away a piece of yourself: While there are some things that your parents can hold onto until you can store them for yourself, they may not be able to hold onto every stuffed animal you’ve had since your were four or every disney princess novelty you got for Christmas. Sometimes, those things just have to go, and as much as it hurts, it’s a part of growing up.
For now, that’s about all I’ve gotten rid of. I’m not done going through everything, so I’m sure I’ll find more, but it feels good anyway. You just have to let go of the past sometimes, and that’s okay. So, actually listen to your mom when she tells you to clean your room before going back to school, or just to clean your room in general, and take the time to renew your space.